JING = FOOD

Jing's Latte Ash <3/ Pics @ BlooiE's/ Life Lesson

2009-10-04T19:53:00.014+08:00

=Jing's Latte Ash <3=

Presenting......

*drum rolls*

The Latte Ash........Jing!!

*just dyed 2 hours+ ago* It has been bleached (and let alone for 3 weeks yoo) before it can arrived at this stage~ wahahaha~ 8DD

=Pics @ BlooiE's=

These are pictures taken in our little world of kitchen life.... hahaha

Pic 1 :: ~Me and Li wen~

Pic 2 :: ~Me and Ah Kai~

They sure love their "peace" sign... hahahaha~

(And That's me holding some random mooncake and veggie carvings on a plate... Hahah~ =p)

=Life Lesson=

Yooooo ppl~~

It's been a long while since I last blogged, alot had happened, good and bad... But It's too long of a story to even begin... The very important factor I've learnt from another human being is that, no matter how retarded the environment (in general) you're in is, It is still your responsibilities to produce proper work attitude. I give it a thought and realise It's relevant.
You can blame establishments being retarded, unfair, political etc etc... But by showing poor work attitudes, producing no relevant results, you are exactly where you should be. Say, how would any good places want you if this is the work attitude you'll display everywhere you go? Hahaha
That's really something and will be the reason to keep me going in whatever circumstances I meet later part in life...

Alrighty with all the talkie talk talk... I'm alright with where my life is proceeding~ I have a secret plan in progress, will tell more once it's stablized... I promised It'll be an exciting journey... *sparkless* 8DD

One Week Fun Time~~

2009-06-10T13:03:00.004+08:00

The trip description I shall leave that out... *too damn long liao, I'll just keep this memory with me until I have a chance to talk about it* hehehe~ xD

Have to say it's a re-union trip with cousins... Hasn't been this entertaining for a long time... My oh my their all growing up fast! *Raymond's taller than me now* blehhh. =.=
Ah Mei's personality resembles third aunt! *alert alert* not.....a good sign. o.o
But on the other hand, she interacts well with my sis... *no surprise* similiar attitudes mahhh... *Don't kill me if you're reading this sis* hahaha! XD

Raymond has grown into quite a handsome chap, still a kid who loves fun and new experiences but his caring acts surprised me... Me, Jimmy and Raymond used to be so close when we were little, relative meet up every sundays gave us chance to stick together... But maybe it's the "qing chun qi" made us grew apart, third aunt somehow stopped bringing them to Ah Ma hse, we lost contact... Rarely see each other at all... and that's that. *childhood playmates gone* QAQ

Really glad we all have a chance to meet up again... Sad that Jimmy couldn't make it though... The old times have 3 of us, and that shall be it. There will always be a next time... for now... good job Raymond! Keep up the gentlemen-ness, your caring heart towards family and relatives has impressed me. Hope you'll grow up into a fine young man. *kao, sounded like a mother* hahaha~

Through out the whole trip, Aunt Jessie pays almost everything we buy!! *Don't dare to imagine how much everyone has sucked out of her already* LOL

It has been a great trip~ Little episodes didn't spoil most of it... Have to thank everyone involved in this trip, thank you for giving me more perception about life... *bless ya all* <3

Now I'm feeling good and ready to get back to work tomorrow! =)

Blogging from Blooie's~

2009-05-28T17:04:00.002+08:00

I brought along my laptop todae... Blooie's allow us to surf net for free and also to leave our lappy in the office~ weeeehhh~ =))

Now's break time, so wanna spend some time blogging... hahah~

Had much fun todae~ I've learn to do a veg sandwich and chicken wrap! Although I screw up halfway (cos I only know the first half of the process and got part of my sandwich burnt. LOL) but kitchen peepz to the rescue~~ woootz~ I finally get to see the whole process... not too hard, just have to remember them and get it organize in my head... Though I'm abit slow, they are still willing to teach me alot... *love it here* =)))

First Off Day~

2009-05-24T19:15:00.002+08:00

It's kinda tiring to stay long hours in the kitchen even though all that, it's really been fun and more fun with Blooieans (made up nick lol)... They are all so nice~ =))

Had my first day off from the first week~ Did so many things and now its night again~ Tomor I'll surprise them with ah ma's rice dumplings! *Seems like almost every workplace I went, I had memories of giving away ah ma's rice dumplings* hahaha~ xD

So far so good... =)

2009-05-20T01:13:00.002+08:00

It's my second day into working... It has been quite relax although time spent there is long, 10.30am - 9.30pm with 3 hours break (I don't rest besides having meals lol), the kitchen staffs are nice too... =))
Although the kitchen culture is very much the way it is (watch and learn part)... I just can't be quiet... *like anything I dunno and I'm actually in the middle of it, I'll have to ask on the spot* o.o

Karthi will only be joining me after next week, so I'll be missing kitchen jargons and the language of english for awhile~ xD

Glory Glory Glory Man-united~

2009-05-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

Once again we won the champion's league!! Hurray for Manu!!!! *jumps ard* WEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHH~!!!! XXXD

Went georges to watch manu match with Sherry and her fren Sofia~ maybe this is the last time I'll be going to georges for the next few months... Work will commerce on the 18th of May, and the working time might be 10.30am-11.30am till say 10.30pm I hope? It's such long hours~~ But I do have problem travelling long distance... *Really hate it, kinda uncomfortable when you know you're just sitting or standing away 2 hrs of your life to get to somewhere else*

I need a portable game device now~ Can't get one until I am paid for at least 2 months worth cos I'll be getting say $500 per month? *luckily my travelling fares, phone bills and food are covered, or this amount won't work out no matter how you caculate* #A#

It'll be a journey from east coast road to science park 2, 9 working hours per day, 6 days week, 2 meals will be provided and break time (never mentioned the exact timing and such though) I swear to give full details when I operate my business next time... *It's sure not a good feeling not knowing anything until you start* @_@

This plan is even more demanding than the pervious workplace, hope I'll be able to sing, laugh, smile, be happier there at least? =)

Congratulations from Blooie's

2009-05-14T19:40:00.002+08:00

Here's what I've received in the email ::

Hey guys,

Sorry for delay but William, our group Head Chef, was away. Anyway we are set to start you both on Monday 18th and I will forward you exact details tomorrow etc.

Karthigesu - will be placed at Science Park
Jing Ying - will be placed at Tua Kong

Congratulations and will finalise all the details tomorrow.

Cheers

Terry

YES!!! YES!!! Finally!! *criessss~* \TwT/

I heard from an ex-trainer that as many as 40+ students have not found their attachment yet... he also told me that the economy is really pulling us. *Really hope my jrs/classmates will get attached soon* x(

I AM HAPPY YOOOOOOO!! *YAYYYYY~~~* \(>w<)/

A Night of Carlsberg and Little Episodes

2009-05-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Last night was kinda amusing, after having dinner with family and relatives, my fren asked me out for a drink, at first I didnt wanna drink, rather I would love to take a stroll at the beach, she didnt like my idea either... so yea, after giving it a thought, my night won't be any better if I don't vend it out.

We meet outside my house and walk to the pub, on the way I kept sighing, when fren asked, I couldn't answer cause I don't have any. We arrived at the pub, still feeling rather low, I told my fren to order whatever she wants... We had a bucket of carlsberg (6 bottles) and she got me a shot of blowjob (shooter name) it taste all chocolaty with a touch of liquer fragant~ *it may sound wrong but it taste awesome!* hahaha xD

While we are drinking, she start talking and all, trying to find out what's bothering me... Much to my surprise, she somehow linked everything to the root of all... *I can't stop my tears when someone hits the jackpot I didn't wanna share.* yea, so I teared and teared (luckily it's dark in there, or I'll be super embarassed)

After awhile I'm alright, but its her turn to sunk in. My questions to jesus seems to have dumbfounded her, then she starts to think about her problems, sharing with me, I can't advice those matters but I still listen. At least I know whenever people are low, all they need is someone to listen.

It was a long night filled with episodes, we learned new things about each other, its good thing I guess. But I still don't agree on alcohol solve problems, they only make you more open up to certain extend but it's never a solution to anything. Haha =)

I've tried hard. Even harder than the course I'm pursuing. But I'm still as unimportant as a worthless piece of rag

2009-05-12T03:38:00.006+08:00

Dear diary,

Why would someone think my words of concern are unpleasant to the ears? How can someone make me feel soooo uncomfortable for being myself, so much so that I have to display the "cold shoulders/cool" attitude that I don't like to show unless I am forced to??????? Is trying to show my best assets a bad thing? Why does she have to think I am such a show off and do the roll eyes which is internationally known as a rude gesture??????? *I am seriously disturbed by that gesture*

I try my best because I want them to feel my sincerity, to know I take my knowledge and skills seriously even if it's as simple as singing a song to them. I don't just sing as I told, I sing with my heart and soul you damn it. But everytime I tried to show a good side, she'll roll her eyes and give me that "There she goes again, trying to show off and all." Such unappreciative actions disheartened me big time.

Seriously WTF is wrong with her??????? What unruly things have I done to deserve such treatments???? Ok fine. I am not holding on anymore, not even if you are my family member, a kin or whatever, fuck it. I really do feel she'll be better off not having me around, very sure about this point. To her, I cause more burden, more stress, more unneeded problems. Fine. Everything I do is not enough, no matter how hard I try to be good to her she ain't seeing it, let alone "feeling" my kindness.

Alright, I'm ending this misery so please don't do things that'll soften my heart again can???? I am already doing what I've planned to do. Ignore, be as colde as I can and just flare up at every chance I get even if it means for no reason. That's basically what I do to cover up other real emotions. Hate me. Hate me as much as you can, so I can give up feeling less guilty.

I am very tired too. Let's end it here. *haiz*

Well, doesn't like me showing off, so I shall type the song instead of singing it.
Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you uuuu, Happy birthday to you.
*Wish you happy always, in whichever way you think is best.*

Re published :: On my own, It shall be.

2009-05-02T01:13:00.006+08:00

It's not like I had a bad day or anything like it, I had fun hanging out with Elle and Kyo really. Finally get to learn a tune or 2 off the violin strings, thanks to Elle who is more than willing to teach me. But after much reflection of the episodes happened today, I was set to serious thinking about the "Singapore cultural behaviour" again.

Woke up in the morning, feeling like I've drown myself in barrels of alcohol last night, head feels like it start a drill without me. Awful. Awful. Awful. But yeah, took the usual vitamin tablets + panadol to chase away the headache.

I'm fine after, but by the time I notice, I was late (yet again) to meet Elle and Kyo. Hurrily, I flagged a cab (leaving the ang mo right across the road, still strangled at the same spot even though he was there waiting for cab before I stepped out of my house) eh. Better luck next time. *sorry* =x

So on the cab I was texting Tanny (hoping i could finally meet her after so bloody hell long.) and
Elle (keeping her update of my status and not to MIA after texting "I'm cabbing there now." or sort.)

Yes I am sick and tired of "let's see how/I dunno/dunno yet" kinda replies every now and then. This seems rather a "common practice" among fellow Singapore people. Like does a little organisation and planning cause malfunctioning to your brain?? Or is giving a timing really that hard?? I can't seem to understand this part. (maybe Lee Anne could analysis this type of beings for me.)

Pissed. Pissed. Blehy Pissed. *fish you*

Okay back to happy stuff, the text message I was waiting for finally comes. In my mind I screamed to myself: "It's a yes!! IT'S A YES!!". Indeed, Terry the manager of Blooie's has confirmed with me that my school has approved our appeal for students to attached to his company for internship. Overjoyed, I spread the message around smiling cheek to cheek, like a little child getting a huge cotton candy bigger than her head. Hey at least I have a good news that's an huge issue to me being lift off my body. X)

Day went quite well, had lotsa food (really alot) watch Elle and Kyo play Rock Band on PS3 , sing along to songs I know how. Quite interesting way to pass time, kinda fun too. =D

Only that I didn't manage to get my stuff (was 80% sure I won't get it today anyways lol) and didn't meet Tanny again (for the third time. Let's do a counting of how many times both of us are not fated to meet each other.) Well, a friendship with status in "distant" mode. But everytime I think of not having this to go on anymore they'd surprise me with a text message, suddenly we are talking again, then distant again. This vicious cycle is driving me nuts.

If I was to be given a choice of personality, I'd choose to be ignorant. At least I won't be disappointed and all sensitive to every episodes I come across, every outcome was according to what I've analysised. That definitely don't make me a happier person.

I hate it when my brain kept analysising how people around me behave, especially when they ain't doing the right thing or making the right decisions. Even though I've always started out every friendship with all my sincere heart, it's always the other party that leaves me too much of a disappointment to continue our shared friendship. Does anyone knows every relationship is not just by coincidence? Does anyone knows the meaning of cherishing the bond we unknowingly created together?

Little episodes (or slight changes in people's attitude) can lead my mind to every possiblities such as these. Maybe there's more that I did not typed out? Maybe my brain can't process all my thoughts through typing? I don't know really...My heart just feels real empty inside.

I'm sure once work starts, I'd sure long to forget about hanging out with friends, mafia wars, facebook, shopping etc. I'll be too busy crowding my mind with work related issues than to do anything else.

On my own, It shall be. Be brave and face the open seas, adventures will fill your heart of lonliness.

Back to feeling like myself again~ =)

2008-11-02T21:41:00.003+08:00

I've made chocolate bread and butter pudding today~ Real happy to leave that restaurant to start on the path I truly love...

Now I'll be pending for Swissotel, once they open hiring, I'll get the chance to get in... If not, a senior from Amara Hotel said I can approach her anytime and I'll be employed immediately... really thank her for that... *now I'm hoping to continue my attachment asap* Though I will be lag behind and have to extend my attachment period, I don't mind as long as I'm employed by people I'm comfortable working with, I feel safe and trusted in...

*I thank all the people ard me who helped and advised me through this period* I will not let you all down! *Lotsa Love* *huggs* XXD

I don't find it appropriate to go back school to continue my attachment while searching for another placement, I mean I don't mind graduating later than others, its the matter of how you feel at your workplace and not finishing with your intake... I'll get my cert eventually so it is still better for me to stay put and wait... Now it's holiday for me.... *weeeeehhh* XD

New environment, old attitudes.

2008-10-19T11:16:00.002+08:00

Do I have a say?

Tons of bad luck has chosen this time to fall on me. Kitchen has been really boring, strict, hostile. What the hell have I put myself into?

-No singing is allowed.
-No encouraging words.
-No more social frens to hang ard with.
-No more family members to talk to.
-No staffmeal or employee meal fee.
-Not allow to laugh, talk louder or joke among ourselves in the kitchen where most of our time have to be spent in.
-Full of tension in the kitchen.
-Full of boostful attitudes displayed by higher authorities.
-Full of vulgarities.
-Full of higher authorities'.
-Full of people full of themselves.
-Full of crap.
-Full of ridiculous rules.
-Full of harsh comments.
-Full of seriousness throughout 12hours at workplace.
-Boring jokes that I feel I'm forced to laugh at.
-Have to arrive at 8.40am - 8.45am to start work even though we must only to write down starting at 9.30am... Ends work at 9.35pm to 10pm... Start the same routine again everyday.

There is absolutely zero positive energy in me that says I am willing to learn from you, only feeling pure boostfulness and authoritative that puts me off for choosing the place.

I am having a seriously hard time with nowhere, no one to spill out these rapidly piling negative energy.

Amitabha, hope i can pull through this.

The Siblings Duo

2008-07-12T16:20:00.000+08:00

The Hii siblings and I! *wave wave* 8D

They are the ones that makes me think I am loved, friendship and kindness is much more important than anything else in the world, hanging around Singapore is fun, doing whacky things is normal, being random is what its all about~ I absolutely love 'em very much! *hugs them tight* xD

Though they are far away from Singapore and we don't keep in touch that often, my heart is always thinking about them~ *hope they are doing very well and I'm look forward to see them soon!* YAY~!!! *hugsssssss* x3

*showers good luck all over them* =))

Starting all over again~

2008-07-12T15:45:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging again yo~

After com skills lesson with Mr Steven Tham, I've realised I need a platform to sound out my feelings and thoughts as true friends are not always there 24/7 (even though they said they are, but they need their rest too ya... lol) So I have to be more considerate. xD

By blogging I'm actually doing an intrapersonal communication (interacting with myself), I figured out if I don't do this, and for my given shatec timetable schedule, I'll have no female friends to talk to, which to me is really difficult to live with.

Most of the guys around me claimed they are sensitive but really, they are not there yet. They can be fun and really rowdy, but to me I can't really trust them with my feelings. They are impatient or just care less about what you're trying to tell them.

I have share my thoughts with.... 1...2...3 guys in my class of 31 guys vs 2 girls, they are the only ones I feel comfortable with and are willing to listen to my thoughts and feelings up till now. But yea, guys will be guys, I do understand they'll have their own click. For that I am left alone most of the time.

Class starts from 8.30am to 6plus pm almost everyday, I'll reach home at 8plus pm usually. Where do I get the time to interact with my true friends? Ridiculous school distance and time really set my feelings aside.

This might be the reason why I am feeling so low all the time, maybe I need to secretly sms me friends more often. haha~ xD

Feels much better after encoding and decoding my thoughts here. Hope the hyper and ridiculous me will be re-discovered soon. *I miss her* =)